Go In Peace

I made these lyrics over two years ago. It was based on the pain I was feeling and the torment I went through. It is about (In more detail) how a girl I once liked lied to me and hurt me, so I left her. I later found out by her stepmother, that cause of my actions of leaving her. She killed herself and her stepmother blamed me.
I would have nightmares several times a week and feel a constant, stinging guilt inside my heart. I hated so much in life after that; I mainly hated myself though for allowing that to happen: For allowing her to die. I cried for such a long time and gave up on my future of writing, gave up on myself completely.

Go In Peace

Star shinning bright tonight, I wish I may I wish I might. Please grant my wish tonight…

Remembering that day I stood under the stars wishing for another start…
To a life so full of pain and mistakes, a life I am beginning to feel I can’t take…
Making me break from all the hate…shattering my bones with a solid blow…sending me away to a world you know…
A place where shadows cover all around where hate is yearned for and carried out…
Screaming in vain…
Crying in pain…
Don’t even know my name…
You did this to me so send me away…

Sending me away to the perfect place…
A place where hate turns to love, death turns to life…
Placing me far away from you…so we can go in peace…

Placing me on a pedestal that reached the sky; you looked at me as if I could change your life…
Expecting me to ease your pain, respecting me cause I did not treat you the same…
Then the day came where I lost control, I left you for all the things you put me through…

Sending me away to the perfect place…
A place where reality is as good as a dream…
Placing me in a era surrounded by ocean and sea…

Now the day has come that I heard the news, you took your life using me as the excuse…
Living with the dead in my head, feeling that things won’t end as time withers away breaking me down to a miserable shame…
Go in peace…
Acts of hate against me feel branded to my core in this life…
Filled with lies and false comforts to tempt, breaking me from the chains of fate…
Leading me to one conclusion for the end…

Sending me away to the perfect place…
A place where reality is as good as a dream…
A place where the life we live be as peaceful the greatest dream…
Go in peace…

It has been over two years since the day I heard the news of her death and even though I might still grieve and feel guilt about it once in a while. I managed to push myself from the awful day and learn from my mistakes. In time I have grown wiser and more mature, it allows me to help others now. I no longer harbor a deep hate for myself and feel myself slowly recovering.
I gave up everything cause of that pain; but I did not die. And because I managed to keep fighting, my life has changed. MY future is bright because I was accepted to have my first novel published already. And though I have yet to find my soul mate, I know she is out there. And I know I can get over anything.
Because we all harbor a great strength within us that kicks in automatically whether we see it or not when the pain around us has gotten so great. It takes time to heal the deepest wounds; it takes you to get over the easy ones. Never give up on that strength in you.